::2dae i tink i reeli made my dae...finaly i cleard up tings wif hr...actuali ystrdae nite i stayed up l8 writing lttr 2 hr...bt yeah in d end i took up d courage 2 tok 2 her personally...itz jz so hard 4 me2 sae it..i ws holding my tears while toking 2 hr...bt i belief in myself...well at least nw my mind is cleard up...
n jz nw we gt d appreciating tingy at d hall...i jz simply dn undrstand y dey sae we luk down on dem..we nvr did..maybe dey stereotyped demself btd truth we nvr criticise...dere's no point doing dt..itz jz wasting our time...

the power of belief...itz so damn amazing...
nw i idolizes adam khoo..he's such an amazing prson...
n d course is so worth d money man..i learnt many new diff tingz...
n melvin was d bes trainer..he taught me so much in life...
ystrdae he woke us up frm our veri3 long sleep...all of us cried abt it..its so damn effective...

hmm..maybe dis may b my last entry till my o lvl finish...n my hp i'm nt gonna kip it by nxt wik...so no mre distraction...so dts all...chowz::

.:So Long & Goodnite FU**er blogged on 11:38 PM:.
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::hiaz...i nvr knew my mask was so thick dis daes...i'm getting rid of it...

man jz nw i cried so badly..especially tinking abt my parents..i ws so sad n angry...i dunnoe y...wen melvin saes sum of d tingz abt it..it jz makes me fils sad abt wt i hv done 2 dem..i do mre sins n nt truth...i noe..

n i tink i hav been putting on dis mask..its juz so hard..its like bonded wif super glue...n i'm peeling it off...slowly..n step by step...

chowz...real man cries..::

.:So Long & Goodnite FU**er blogged on 10:53 PM:.
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::tmr...
gt d adam khoo tingy until 9pm..so late bt gd..haha..
ystrdae my cuz tunang..held at hr hme..ade jempotan..hr tunang lives sumwhere ard my area..hmm..i wonder hu...
bt well..ystrdae ws d dae 1 of the seldom family reunion...met many of my relatives..some of my cuzzins hav reeli grw up...
and MY UNCLES N AUNTIES cant recognize me...haha..dey say if dey met me outside dey won't recognize me..dey sae i looked totaly diff..n i m d tallest among all of dem..including my uncles..i was like d giant in the family...haha..well i finally gt 2 meet my granddad..its veri 2 mit him since he stays in muar...i gotta go balek kampong man..haha..ppl sae i'm lucky enuf 2 hav a kampong..hmm..

dis is his pix i manage 2 gt while he's eating..haha


by the way,i used 2 be his fav grandchild until my sisters came by..haha

well i've come 2 dis conclusion dt galz look d nicest in their traditional costume..reeli...i min if they wear it wif proud,no doubt dey r at their nicest...

dts all...by the wae,tmr 1209..haha...chowz..

Once more I'll say goodbye to you
feelings happen, but we don't really know why
if it's supposed to be like this
why do most of us ignore the chance to miss
oh yeah
torn apart of the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling this situation
run away try to find a safe place you can hide
the best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around Me! (Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before i snap
Once more you tell those lies to me
Why can't you just be straight up with honesty (honesty)
When you say those things in my ear
Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear (wana hear)
oh yeah (yeah!)
Wear your heart on your sleeve make things hard to believe
I'm not feeling this situation
run away try to find that safe place you can hide
the best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around me
(Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before i snap and you'll see! (me)Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before i snap
torn apart of the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling this situation
run away try to find that safe place you can hide
the best place to be when you're feeling like me(it's the best place to be when you're!)
Me! (Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back up in for a snap and you'll see (me)
Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me
(Me)Yeah! (Yeah)Just back off before i snap::

.:So Long & Goodnite FU**er blogged on 9:01 PM:.
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::lets go

with blood shot eyes
i watch you sleeping
the warmth i feel beside me is slowly fading
would she hear me if i called her name
would she hold me, if she knew my shame

theres always something different going wrong
the path i walk is in the wrong direction
there's always someone fucking hanging on
can anybody help me make things better

your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home

the moments died, i hear no screaming
the visions left inside me are slowly fading
would she hear me if i called her name
would she hold me if she knew my shame

this battered room i've seen before
the broken bones they heal no more, no more
with my last breath i'm choking
will this ever end i'm hoping
my world is over one more time

dis song is nw stuck in my head..cz its so meaning ful 2 me n cn relate 2 me nw
man i h8 d human race...its all abt playig wif d affairs of hearts...n i h8 it veri much....
i guess going wif d flow is bttr dn pursueing it...n nt even forcing tingz to happen is aready bad enuf..haiz...y cnt ppl b frenz?izzit wrong 2 be bez frenz wif d opposite sex?muz it alwaes end up wif a relationship huh?cum on...WAKE UP FUCKERZ...

man i'm so disgusted by dt she male..jz ask rusydia abt our experience at vista while going bck... its so dmn obvious frm d face...haha..even d tingz luks bttr dn dt she male...hahaha

dts all..no hard feelingz...chowz

she smiled at me n i'm kinda lost 4 sud had smiled bck..so nice yt rare...
haha..an old fren of mine..::

.:So Long & Goodnite FU**er blogged on 4:10 PM:.
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